No matter how we think and choose, there is always someone around you that we cannot do without. When I was just a kid, that someone was my mom. It wasn’t until I was older that I started seeing who and how she was more. Though she may have been like my favorite teddy bear, she was my real life teacher. Every day of my life, she prepared me for the day that I would get a proper chance to show who I am as a person.
My experiences with my mom weren’t always positive. From my earliest years, she had a problem with body image issues. That was the first reason that I believed she did everything she did to me. Throughout the years, she would put the money towards my upbringing. But, in the end she spoiled me. So I just had to accept it, so I became the adult that she told me to become.
Because she told me not to ask anything, I was ready when the career was announced. But I was also disappointed and sometimes angry. But at the end of the day, it’s the person that would be most beneficial to me. And, in the end, that kind of feels perfect.
Moleculous skin and humongous breasts? I don’t care. Baking soda and rabbit sweaters? I don’t care.
Just because I can’t find the best ways to get through daily life, doesn’t mean that this process will be slow. It means, that this process will be given the time it needs, so that it eventually reaches the perfect path towards full awareness.